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“ 12 Kinds of Lost”  Lyrics

“Bored Young Ghost”

If i die, i don’t want my ghost living here
there aint nothing for a ghost in this sleepy town
need to find some place, where i’ll be happy dear
some place where i can never settle down

cuz If Idie here my ghost will be as bored as i am
trouble will find me long after my life is through
ill become addicted to the fear in the eyes of the living
cuz around here haunting is the only thing
that a bored young ghost can do


maybe i’ll go to new york, maybe ill go to L.A.
keep my mind as busy as i can
maybe ill write a script, and make a movie one day
about a small town kid without a dream and without a plan


If I die here, my ghost will be as bored as i am
trouble will find me long after my life is through
ill become addicted to the fear in the eyes of the living
cuz around here haunting is the only thing
that a bored young ghost can do

But i’ll prolly stay here and live out the script id have written
cuz dreams are to big for a small town kid to own
the’ll beat ‘em outta you as soon as you get ‘em
and baby i’m starting to believe them so please leave me alone


when i die here, my ghost will be as bored as i am
trouble will find me long after my life is through
ill become addicted to the fear in the eyes of the livin
cuz around here haunting is the only thing
that a bored young ghost can do


“Loneliness”

I had a vision, what a vision
you were standing next to me
i turned my head, then i said i love you
but you were gone
now im alone, there are worse things to be
but right now i cant think of one

cuz loneliness aint just a state of mind
and it aint just a state of being
its a moment in time
on a clock that dont wind
and you’re stuck in that hollow feeling

its after midnight, im wound tight
and got nowhere to go
cuz your world was my world until it crumbled
i wish i could say i was better off today
but i can’t find a way out of loving you

cuz loneliness aint just a state of mind
and it aint just a state of being
its a moment in time
on a clock that dont wind
and you’re stuck in that hollow feeling

i had a vision what a vision
the past was erased
and i replaced it with this old timey love song
but we’re still there and now its clear
the damage was done
and there aint no escaping
no matter how far i run

cuz loneliness aint just a state of mind
and it aint just a state of being
its a moment in time
on a clock that dont wind
and you’re stuck in that hollow feeling



“Only Human”
I wonder how much love it takes
to mend a broken heart
some days i don’t get outta bed
i aint got the will to start
but im only human
are you human too?
how many days do you go through this
like i do, like i do
i wonder how much luck it’d take
to get back on the road
the one where we both love each other
some nights i drink alone
im only joking
no wait, that’s true
and if i counted all the times
i was thinkin of you
i’d really start believing
we had no semblance of a clue
what we were doing, where we were going
and i guess its worth knowing, if you feel that way too
I wonder if i’ll ever get
the chance to make it right
i traded all my happiness
to stay another night
i thought it was noble
did you think it was noble too?
i can tell by the look on your face
it wasnt the kind of noble for you, it wasnt for you
you’d have rather had me tell the truth
that’s easy for you to say
everytime i hinted i felt alone
you’d yell and walk away
i guess we werent that different
i never knew
 I was always thinking of me
and you were always thinking of you
it’s really got me believing
we had no semblance of a clue
what we were doing, where we were were going
and i guess its worth knowing if you feel that way too
so i wonder what kind of love it takes
to go out and start again
i guess its the kind of love you give
yoursefl from somewhere deep within
but im only human
and that’s hard to do
the hardest person to love it seems is always you
the hardest one to love it seems is always you


“Down In Hell”
Down in hell, where the angels cry
i can hear them wale like the sirens on a cruiser
i woke up from the nightmare and i opened up my eyes
to see the blue and red lights flashin on the wall
mama’s called the cops again, daddy’s drinkin to much gin
it’s the first time i start to think my dad’s a loser
then i start to wonder if i’ll end up just like him
i read in school that all great men must fall

he’s goin down down down
there he goes, there he goes
he’s goin down down down
now he’s gone

and im Down in hell, where the angels cry
i picked up where he left off on the bottle
breakin rules and skippin school and learnin how to lie
i could hear those warnings turn into a plea
you better straighten up now kid, you’re gonna end up just like him
a drunk that aint got noone else to turn too
alone without direction i went lookin for a friend
and i got to know the darker side of me

he’s goin down down down
there he goes, there he goes
he’s goin down down down
now he’s gone

now i’ve got me a cell, the perfect place to hide
i was to damn drunk to sit behind the wheel
I crashed head on with rock bottom and i killed a man that night
this jail’s got nothin on all this guilt i feel
mama she don’t visit, daddy he don’t write
i’ve been readin books on how all these good men live free
i never got the chance to see what it looked like
i wish i’d never met the darker side of me

he drug me down down down
i’m so low i’m so low
he drug me down down down
now i’m gone


“The Tunnel”

It’s Dark where i live now
Cuz i lost the light
that shown through the window in the morning
now i’m underground
learning to fight
and looking for the strength to let it all go
Well i woke up down here
sometime in april
with nothing, not even a warning
and im trying like hell
to get back to you and the daylight that i used to know

so if i’ve got anything left at the end of this
you can damn sure bet i will be laughin along
if i’ve got anything left at the end of this
you can damn sure bet i will be singin a song
so meet me at the end of the tunnel
and if you beat me please dont leave me in trouble

I’m down to a crawl
down to a panic
and i cant say this will be the last time
now i’m feelin the walls
for a switch to manic
or some kind of signal this might be over soon
but i found me a candle
and one piece of chalk
and ive started to write in the meantime
some small inspiration
to keep tryin to walk
towards that loving light that i once knew

so if i’ve got anything left at the end of this
you can damn sure bet i will be laughin along
if i’ve got anything left at the end of this
you can damn sure bet i will be singin a song
so meet me at the end of the tunnel
and if you beat me please dont leave me in trouble
i haven’t seen the light in so long
i havent seen the light in so long



“ I don’t Wanna Run”

I smoke another cigarette
and place another foolish bet
dreams they come and go in an instant
when you’re willin to lose it all
every day on the up and down
cheap liquor and a night on the town
some days im happy right where i am
some days i just wanna fall
heaven above hell below
it seems the same wherever i go
try to get what i need and give what i owe
it feels like im startin to stall

I’d like to find me a place
in the middle, a piece of land
buy some acreage and learn to play the fiddle
start me an old time string band
cuz i don’t wanna run i don’t wanna run
to or from nothin
i don’t wanna run i dont wanna run
just want a place to stand

I had that same old dream again
where i’m fallin asleep at the wheel
and i watch that car rollin just rollin
everyday goin round and round
forget the picture but remember the sound
i might feel lucky when i find my own ground
until then i’ll be wondering
if heaven’s hot or if hell is cold
if dreams mean something
or just something to hold
if love feels anything like what i’ve been told
will it ever stop thundering

I’d like to find me a place
in the middle, a piece of land
buy some acreage and learn to play the fiddle
start me an old time string band
cuz i don’t wanna run i don’t wanna run
to or from nothin
i don’t wanna run i dont wanna run
just want a place to stand
I’ve hit my limit oh i’m gonna quit it
all this runnin’s got me goin nowhere
gonna find me a river, stop actin like i care
a porch with a view sing lead on a few
and drink outta joy not outta heartache
gonna jump in that river and start livin life for its own sake

cuz i don’t wanna run i don’t wanna run
to or from nothin
cuz i don’t wanna run i don’t wanna run
to or from nothin
cuz i don’t wanna run i don’t wanna run
to or from nothin anymore
 i dont wanna run i dont wanna run
don’t know what i started runnin for


“Devil’s Playground”

My hometown is the devil’s playground
there’s people shootin up and snortin cocain
amphetamines are passed around along with
communion and the good lords grace
everybody knows the bible says dont
but people tend turn and look the other way
my home town is the devil’s playground
there’s people in the backwoods cookin up a storm
but as long as your ass is in that pew on sunday
you can be forgivin hell you can even be reborn
but is there really any difference in the high from a needle
and the high from the good word of the lord
my hometown is the devils playground
sold like a temple to the lord
My hometown is the devil’s playground
there’s people shootin up and snortin cocain
amphetamines are passed around along with
communion and the good lords grace
My hometown is the devil’s playground
sold like the pearly gates



“Aint Outta Line”

Restless I am
till the morning
i get as much sleep
as a coal miner’s wife
i dream of the town
i was born in
and the easy way of livin
i left so far behind

but it aint a crime
to dream of a life you’re not livin
when you aint got a dime
and that something that should be aint givin
well, it aint outta line
to dream of what could have been
but what is will be there to greet you
when the sun comes to shinin

It’s hard out here workin for nothin
i don’t write near as often
and i’m anxious as hell
but i came out here looking for something
what it is might be home
anymore, i cant tell

but it aint a crime
to dream of a life you’re not livin
when you aint got a dime
and that something that should be aint givin
well, it aint outta line
to dream of what could have been
but what is will be there to greet you
when the sun comes to shinin



“Great Divide”

I can sense a great divide
grown between us
ever deeper
since the moment of our last goodbye
and the moment we both fell in love

are we gonna let it destroy us?
or build us a bridge high above?
we might regret it, but we could just let it
be a landmark of our one time, undying love

we can visit when we’re feelin sad
seperately on occasion
and admire the love that we had
on the way to our next destination

we don’t have to let it destroy us
or build us a bridge high above
we might regret it but we could just let it
be a landmark of our one time undying love

we don’t have to deface it or set it on fire
we can embrace our waning desire
we don’t have to flood it we can call it a day
we can just walk away

I can sense a great divide
grown between us
ever deeper
since the moment of our last goodbye
and the moment we both fell in love

we don’t have to let it destroy us
or build us a bridge high above
we might regret it but we could just let it
be a landmark of our one time undying love



“The News Alone”
Feeling low
and getting high to find a balance
wiping tears
another tragedy spillin’ sadness from my eyes
feeling old
and getting by has lost its magic
through the years
i’ve been glad to be but now im tired of just surviving

friends are few, by design
they can’t give me up if they dont know where to find me
but its getting hard to watch the news alone
wish i had someone to cry with beside me

It’s taken hold
another chapter in this never ending headline
another sequel
another cycle full of violence going round
and i watch alone
i’ve spent my whole life standing on the sidelines
trying to shield
myself from all this pain im feelin now

friends are few, by design
they can’t give me up if they dont know where to find me
but its getting hard to watch the news alone
wish i had someone to cry with beside me

how did i become so disconnected
fear drove me here, then she dropped me off alone
how did i become so god damn misdirected
an arms length from everyone i know

Friends have been few by design
and i realize that they’d love me if i let them
and its getting so hard to watch the news alone
a person can’t get through this life without somebody
to cry with beside them



My Mother, Missouri

my mother missouri
 her rivers are overflowing
she’s flooding like she’s never done before
and if it keeps pouring
she might go under
and the bad news is that there’s more rain in store
her banks aren’t as strong
as they were when she was younger
and the stresss from all this water
has nearly broken her down
there aint nothin in this world
i’d like to do more
than to bring on an historical drought

cuz my mother missouri she raised me
her insides are floodin but her heart is still gold
my mother missouri she’s hurtin
so im coming home

my mother missouri
she’s strugglin to keep her head above the water
she’s drownin in the violence ragin on
there aint nothing i can do
but hope she makes it through
and to be there
whichever side she’s fallen on

cuz my mother missouri she raised me
her insides are floodin but her heart is still gold
my mother missouri she’s hurtin
so im coming home



“12 kinds of lost”

if lovers are leavers and mothers die young
if god’s some kind of redeemer just for killin a son
if fascists aren’t evil and we’re electing us one
it should come as no surprise
all the drinkin im doing all the drinkin ive done

cuz im feeling
Twelve kinds of lost, twelve kinds of lonely
twelve kinds of hopeless and twelve kinds of pain
and its given me the strength
to do only one thing
drink till i cannot remember my name
if fathers abandoned and dreams don’t come true
if the road’s got me shakin and im losing you
if home is no longer sacred and ive got nothing to do
it should come as no surprise
all these tears in my eyes and this bottle of booz

cuz im feelin
Twelve kinds of lost, twelve kinds of lonely
twelve kinds of hopeless and twelve kinds of pain
and its given me the strength
to do only one thing
drink till i cannot remember my name

I can lean on the bottle
until its half empty
wake up in the front yard
full of guilt and full of shame
some days this perscription
dont do a damn thing
but some days its better than feeling
some days its better than feeling

So if lovers are leavers and mothers die young
and i can’t accept the man i’ve become
if hate is persistant and loves on the run
it should come as no surprise
all the drinkin im doing all the drinkin ive done

cuz im feeling
Twelve kinds of lost, twelve kinds of lonely
twelve kinds of hopeless and twelve kinds of pain
and its given me the strength
to do only one thing
drink till i cannot remember my name

 

 

 

 

Album : Anchor

Before It's Too Late

There's a girl standing, with her back to a neon sign
in a bar that I've been to, so many times
and a drunk man is sizing her up
like he ain't seen a woman in a century
this town feels so empty, so empty to me

so I'm movin' on forward I'll go
I ain't been to Kansas or Colorado
I ain't been to Washington State
there's love for me somewhere
and I'm gonna find it before it's too late

everybody grows up to be a cynic in a city like this
so I'll be on the road, clinching my fists
hauling my secrets across the state line
looking for beauty to hard to define
headed west from independence
with answers to find

so I'm movin' on, forward I'll go
I ain't been to Tuscon or Sacramento
I ain't been to any great lake
 there's love for me somewhere
and I'm gonna find it before its too late

this town is a black hole, too many women cursing my name
could get a job at the factory and stay just the same
but I'll be leaving and I don't how soon
before I start believing there's work here to do

So I'm moving on, forward I'll go
I aint been to Memphis or Montechio
I'll travel the United States
there's love for me some where
and I'm gonna find it before it's too late

I may not find it today
but there's love for me somewhere
and I'm gonna find it before it's too late

2. God Vs. Evolution

In the evening time I feel alone
by the morning that old feeling's gone
and hopelessness is replaced by that hangover I'm having
Well I've left a few of these stones unturned
and I don't know what hurts the worst
not knowing or finding out what lies beneath it aint worth grabbing

but if we all feel just the same well I guess I can't complain
there's probably someone going through much worse than me anyways
the curse of thought and consciousness being self aware through all of this
damn god or evolution, whichever you believe in

I've been feeling like an old oak tree
burdens, like limbs hanging heavy on me
I wish someone would cut down some of this weight that I've been bearing
but you and I, we both know the drill
mouths to feed, promises to fill
so excuse me for these thoughts and all these feelings, I ain't been sharing

but if we all feel just the same well I guess I can't complain
there's probably someone going through much worse in different state
the curse of thought and consciousness being self aware through all of this
damn god or evolution, whichever you believe in

I walked one night through Harvard Square
and I looked around at all the people there
and thought long and hard about the fact
that I could even thank about it
cuz without this curse of consciousness
the act of love could not exist
and beauty would have no part in this cold world that we all live in

but if we all feel just the same well I guess I can't complain
there's probably someone going through much worse in different state
the curse of thought and consciousness being self aware through all of this
thank god or evolution, whichever you believe in

3. Ways of Love

I've heard the voice of reason, I've heard it calling me
saying "don't you run to quickly, toward that which you cannot see"
been living, season to season my excuse is that I feel free
but noplans and all this time can make you ache for company

can't you see I am a stranger just like you to the ways of love
it takes a pair to discover where it lives where love comes from
I'd like to find out more about it, maybe then I could become
a resident instead of a stranger, to the ways of love

I understand the voice of God
is just my conscience catching up
if I end up listening I might have much better luck
well I've beensitting here alone trying to find somewhere to go
but as far as I can tell I need someone to let me know

can't you see I am a stranger just like you to the ways of love
it takes a pair to discover, where it lives where love comes from
I'd like to find out more about it, maybe then I could become
a resident instead of a stranger to the ways of love

4. Heartless

hanging from a noose I tied the knot myself
I'm not dead but I'm dying
the punchline of a jokelaughing all the way to hell
when you speak to me you're lying

but if you know me better than myself
you've got a funny way of showing me a sign
I'm all yours, you're not quite mine

brokedown in the heart of Tennessee and I'm starting
to think I've been outsmarted
cuz you're pretending to know me well but I believe you've got it wrong
starting to think you might be heartless

but if you know me better than myself
you've got a funny way of showing me a sign
well I'm yours, you're not quite mine

now i'm hanging from a noose I tied the knot myself
I'm not dead but I'm dying
now i'm the punchline of a jokelaughing all the way to hell
when you speak to me you're lying

but if you know me better than myself
you've got a funny way of showing me a sign
I'm all yours, you're not quite mine

5. Nobody to Blame

she's dusting off her dress
she said "I need to rest a while
I've been racking up the miles on these runaway shoes"
she said "it's hard to be the best and I'm sick of standing single file
I've just been in denial of how much I really use"

it's always been a game pin the needle in the vein
trying to cope with all this shame I don't even need a name
I'm just another hopeless case with nobody to blame
well she found herself a jumpsuit

and some friends she could relate to well
she said "another spell in prison just might do me good"
but she fell into the wrong group
and when she got out began to sell
she said "this well, it runs much deeper than I thought it could"

and it will always be the same pin the needle in the vein
trying to cope with all this shame I don't even need a name
I'm just another hopeless case with nobody to blame

they found her in her car
with a needle in her arm today
don't know why I'm surprised always knew it'd this way

cuz it's always been a game pin the needle in the vein
trying to cope with all this shame but she deserves a name
we all deserve a name

6. The Truth

Ina parking lot past the county fairgrounds, I whispered to her
with all the sweetness that I could muster
"I'm in love with a red headed woman I met on the fourth of july
now the days turned to night and I'm leaving you"

There's no way to explain how I feel without hurting somebody somehow
I've been on the end, that you're sitting in and it's hell when you hear it out loud
the feeling you feel, the emotions are real can't hide 'em so let 'em out now
I can't keep livin' a lie that's why I told you tonight
I hope the truth can feel better somehow

her eyes they widened and her voice itheightened and she said to me
"yeah I knew, but I chose to ignore it
cuz I've loved you for years, but it fell on deaf ear, cuz all that you love
are your ideas and how you explore them"

Well I thought things might change, maybe I could explain
that we were meant for each other or something
but I've been lying to myself, and its felt like hell
and I realize it was all for nothing

there's never been a way to explain how we feel without hurting the other somehow
we've both been on the end that we're sittin' in and it's hell when you hear it out loud
the feelings we feel, the emotions are real can't hide 'em so let 'em out now
I can't keep living I lie, that's why I told you tonight
I hope the truth can feel better somehow

7. Ain't no Saint

In the darkness there's a light and surely I can see it
but it's so far away that I can hardly reach it

I ain't no saint cuz sinning's easy it's easier to do
no one's a saint cuz sinning's easy it's easier to do

I've been loved and left and loved again left money on the table
left all I've known and where I've been just to see if I was able

I ain't no saint cuz sinning's easy it's easier to do
no one's a saint cuz sinning's easy it's easier to do

 that wicked wind will blow across your face until it haunts you
it's easier to let it find a home
and resistance ain't an option when you're weaker and it wants you
it'll find a way to swallow you up whole

so in the darkness there's a light and I know that I can reach it
 it's so far away but I swear that I can reach it

I ain't no saint cuz sinning's easy it's easier to do
no one's a saint cuz sinning's easy it's easier to do

 

8. Civil War Song

Digging up civil war bullets, in the front yard
there aint a part of me, that's not in love with you
it's hard to believe, we were ever torn
i tried to secede and a battle was born
but i was only afraid, you were trying to save
a union, you believed in by going to war

the history books won't get it right
they'll be some people who believe i had a reason to fight
but the truth is changing is hard and i just needed some time

reading through letters we wrote, from the battlefield
they painted pictures of nightmarish scenes, and casualties
its hard to believe, we were ever apart
i was weaker without you, you'd won from the start
you marched down to the ocean, lit up every emotion
for the good of the union, for the good of our hearts

and the history books won't get it right
they'll be some people who believe i had a reason to fight
but the truth is changing is hard and i just needed some time
the truth is, changing is hard and i just needed some time

 

9. Anchor

You can get high on speed, booz and weed
or the false feeling of freedom
God or the look in the eye of the one that you love
but coming down's the hardest part
of any living that your doing
but every now and then
every now and then

there's gonna be an anchor, there's gonna be an anchor
its gonna make its way to the bottom of the ocean and hold you down
there's gonna be an anchor, there's gonna be an anchor
you better find a way to live or else you're gonna drown

you can get high on hope or go up in smoke
or find the last piece of the puzzle
hitch a ride to the top of the world and let it all go
meet the girl of your dreams or find out what it means
to feel enlightenment all around you
take a trip to another dimension, trace the patterns real slow
but coming down's the hardest part of any living that you're doing
but every now and then
every now and then

there's gonna be an anchor, there's gonna be an anchor
its gonna make its way to the bottom of the ocean and hold you down
there's gonna be an anchor, there's gonna be an anchor
you better find a way to live or else you're gonna drown

Heaven don't help any body
and hell is hungry all the time

every now and then
every now and then

there's gonna be an anchor, there's gonna be an anchor
its gonna make its way to the bottom of the ocean and hold you down
there's gonna be an anchor, there's gonna be an anchor
you better find a way to live or else you're gonna drown